THE LOOKING BACK

THE LOOKING BACK

I remember when I was 16 years old and just have left Fenestra. The sun was shining and the trees were filled of thousands green leaves. I pushed the door open and took a step outside, out to the freedom. No more homework, teachers or bad school food in the messy cafeteria. Right there, at that time, I felt really happy. I was free. Or well, that is maybe a bit of exaggerate. I was not free for the rest of my life, just for the summer. But at the time I stood there it felt like the summer break would stay forever.

But, like always the summer passed by way too fast and before I knew it, it was time to go back to school again. This time it should not be like the three last years have been, it was time to move on, on to the upper secondary school. Three secure years at a place that I knew better than my own pocket. A place that was, and probably still is, filled with a great mixture of students and teachers. All of them with a different background and experiences to share. I had a great respect to all of them and so they probably had for me. It was great place to stay. I have never challenged myself if I made the right decision about start in that school. Of course, I should be dishonest if I told you that the whole period at the school was a bed of roses. But I have never been unsecure about my choice. I always knew that it was the right thing for me. I still look back at all our common moments sometimes. We had a lot of fun together, but that is over now. It was a new time. The time of the upper secondary school.

I still remember my huge agony about which school I should pick. I was always thinking that my decision would affect the rest of my life. Just that is a very scaring thought. I was visiting a lot of different schools around the Gothenburg region. They were all okay, but nothing more than that. No one of them really capture my interest at first. At last I decided to start a science orientated education at an upper secondary school in Mölnlycke. The school was named "Hulebäck Upper secondary school" My decision was based at my determination about being someone.  I never wanted to be a cleaner or something like that. I should make a great, successful career. I wanted to be remembered as "the one who succeed". Already at the moment I wrote my application I had made up my mind. I should succeed in some or another way. I did not know how or when. But one thing was sure for me; that I someday would become the successful person that wanted to be.

The three years that I spend at the upper secondary school went by so extremely fast, before I knew it was time to graduate. I had three great years filled of parties, great memories and way too much studding. This together with a lot of new great friends. The graduate was very beautiful. It took place at the schoolyard in the middle of June. The sun was shining from a crystal clear sky and the trees shades nicely. I stood there all surrounded of friends and family, with the typical graduating hat at my head. I had just seen my final grades and that did not make my well-being worse. All effort had paid off. Right there I felt really happy again. It a wonderful feeling to be that happy. It feels like you are the king of the entire world, noting can stop you at all. I had only felt that once before, when a graduate from my last school Fenestra.

I have newer thought that studying is fun, but I am actually pretty capable and have the ability to learn easily. Of course this benefitted me to reaching my goals, but it has not been easy even though I have the ability I have. I remember how determined I was about get into the university of Oxford, which finally did. I still remember how nervous I felt when I found the letter from the school in our mailbox. I was truly shaking when I tried to open it and when I red that my apply for the university has been confirmed I get so happy that I newer been before. It was a wonderful feeling.

During the summer I moved into a small apartment in Oxford and generally got myself used to the new Great Britain food and culture. The food is well known for being not to well, but I get used to it like everything else. I have not found too many friends before the university started in the middle august. But when it finally did friends was not a problem anymore. The years in oxford slowly vent by. On my spare time I had a small computer business I was forming. Today everybody have a computer, but this was in approx 1970 when computers was something new and exclusive. But, I saw the potential in these machines and was sure they would be big in the future. I seemed to be right. The breakeven was at the same year I graduate from "Oxford University". I received a request from a huge finance celebrity, who wanted to invest in my small business. In the envelope it was two aircraft tickets to Boston where he had his office and a note with a time for an appointment. Finally in Boston at his office he told me that he believed in my product and wanted to invest an enormous amount of money in the project. After that moment everything happened so fast. After only half a year I was a millionaire. Everybody wanted computers. It was totally unbelievable. After the big breakthrough I never had to work for money again. I met your grandmother, we fell in love and moved together into a new build house in south Florida. Just by the sea. I...